EyiNnnadorable

2009-06-08T02:22:00.000-07:00

i know that i love you but i still have to let you go. Its over. But still you lived inside me. Its my mistake to love u over and over again.. I should stop it for the very 1st time. Yes, there are times where i hate you. But i don't want a broken heart. I try to let you go but i finally let you go. I lived with this broken heart now but i know i am getting stronger each time i being hurt. Its ok for now.. You have to find your happiness now and leave all the memories behind you. Its our history now. We have no more chapters in our love.. But i will never hate you but promise me that we are history now. I will start my new life again with my new changes. This time, i will never let anyone stop my way out.. I will find out what true love store for me.

knock you down

2009-05-19T23:17:00.000-07:00

I have knock it down. I try so hard to make it happen. But seems like it won't happen like the way i planned. i never thought it will be like this. I always want the best for you but we like never fated to be together. Leave me if i been hard towards you. I can't go back now. Tell me now. It is too much for me.Oh this won't be happening again.. Sometimes love goes around but still you can't get the answers to it. How am i suppose to hurt you again? I think of this, my mind is on trip. It never stop in my heart. Cos love is still there to accompany me although it has hurt me. I know i deserve to be in love again till i found the right one. At the end of the dark tunnel, im sure there will be light for me to accept in anything. I never give up to be in love again. if it knock me down, i will get up!

long time i never blog say..

2009-05-10T22:15:00.000-07:00

Hmm. I long time i never blog. So now, i got the time to blog as all i want. Hahaks.. Hmm. On 3May was my birthday. I celebrate with my family. It was simple but memoriable to me! Hmm. On the next day on 4May, i celebrated with my SC members. Acty everything was weird. Both hidayat & sadli were so cheeky that day. I dun know why but the outcome was so touched! Sadli brought for me a birthday cake! Although he didn't do much for my birthday, i felt appreciated. We celebrated in school at cafe 2.. I know what he thinks & all i want him to know is that i love him. This year birthday, i got to celebrate my birthday with him. My loved ones(: haha. I love life stored for me now. I hope it remain this way for me and for my future!

As for the following days, my days was fine! Doing great like usual.. Sweet! (: me and sadli were doing great. Although sometimes we fight over small things but we still together. That's great! Hopefully things went smoothly for us.. Hmmm. Now we been together for nearly 1 month. I love our relationship. And i hope you feel the same way as i feel right now..

MUHD SADLI..

2009-04-28T19:12:00.000-07:00

Now 9 days has passed since the day we are officially together on 20.04.09. (: i somehow feel that being with you is different seyy syg.. 1st of all, it nvr cross my mind that i will be with you. But you see now, i am just beside you. Now and till forever, i will always be with you, muhd sadli. We are together cos' of our care and love for each other and nth else. Just your care & love that make me secure. I may not be perfect but i am always be the beautiful one in your heart. Being with you now, is more that enough. I believe god's blessing is there for us. So syg, my promise to you aite. I promise to takecare of you in times bad or good .......

im offically with Muhd Sadli Nasir!

2009-04-21T02:17:00.000-07:00

i finally officially with MUHD SADLI! It happen since 20.04.09. & as time pass by, i will always love him! Sadli, thanks for being patient and care towards me! & it never crossed my mind that i will choose you in my life. After we are officially together yesterday, i was so so happy.. He really make me feel the love that i really want. Love you my dear! No..no..no.. I love verrrrrryyyyy MUCH! haha. Sayang, cinta jangan dinanti! Muacks!!!(: i remember how we know each other as a friend. It was just like normal friend but end up, we are together! I hope we are together for good and i love u so much tau syg.. Each day, you always make me laugh and i will remember till i close my eyes( go bed larh).. hahaks. So this is our starting relationship, i hope its a good start for us. & love is always the word you said to me yeaterday, tomorrow, now & forever! and i believe you!

2009-04-12T19:19:00.000-07:00

Finally school open.. miss school so much! haha. Btw, thanks sadli for the ben n jerry ice cream!! nanti kiter share ok? welcome back to school! (: well, its a brand new day for me today so i hope to enjoy my life in ite to the fullest. My priority now is now my studies den maybe proceed to working life. LOVE? not now lah, still got a long way to go. I am happy with the way i am now. So now since school already started, sure a lot of assignments waiting for me! Argh! ): hehesss.. so be focus and smile always. That's what i always do! whee2~~ miss my classmates a lots seyy.. when i saw them just now, i hug them tight2 uh.. Eeeeeeeee, miss you girls badly!! anw, takecare ok! Always rmb that i miss and love u people alwaysss.. (: (:

confused !!

2009-04-06T20:24:00.000-07:00

i am confused whether i should go to air-stewardess line or pharmaceuticals industry? both i like and interest in. Both also have long shift working hours! Aiyah! Any suggestions?

i want ot meet TAUFIK BATISAH !!

2009-04-06T20:08:00.000-07:00

i want to meet him! TAUFIK BATISAH !! (: hees.

putus nyambung.

2009-04-06T20:04:00.000-07:00

Ini mimpi anak remaja Seindahnya mimpi para dewa Tak pernah berhenti ceritanya Yang biasa jadi tak biasa....Memangnya dunia ini punyamu. Apa memang hanya ada kamu. Banyak yang bisa menggantikan Putus satu tumbuh seribu. Putus nyambung putus nyambung putus nyambung. Sekarang putus besoknya menyesal. Kalau kau laku hari ini putus Ya putus aja Putus nyambung putus nyambung putus nyambung. Kalau dekat benci kalau jauh kangen Lihat saja nanti apa yang terjadi Putus ataukah nyambung. Aku tau kamu masih suka Aku dan kamu memang gengsian. Sampai kapan harus begini Putus nyambung putus nyambung terus.

2009-04-06T19:54:00.000-07:00

School reopening soon! can't wait for the day. Haaha. I miss my friends alot. Damn alots seyy! Miss all the laughters and shouting at school!! Wahaha. (:

life is life.

2009-04-06T19:37:00.000-07:00

wah, its been along time nvr update my blog! busy working, doing assignments and stuffs.. now then got time to update. Hmm, aiyoh life stress uh 2nd year. Boleh ter-bambom! hahaha. Now busy donating blood. whoever want to donate blood, pls go and do so ok. Haha. A good deed u know! I realised once im busy, i dun have to think abt my unpleasant memories.. I am really happy with things and i am now.. I have changed! thanks to cuppycakes girls, friends, family... i am no longer so called bad tempered! wahaha(: life is life afterall. Im simply me now. Yeah! What? LOVE? Neh, next topic pls? Hahahaha... nantilah aku cari datuk untuk diri aku sendiri eh... Ape lah.. pics of me now.. Happy.

during wedding..

2009-04-06T19:24:00.000-07:00

these are pics taken during kak yahti's bro wedding. Kiter smue jadi kendarat. it was fun and happening.. upon seeing their wedding stuffs, aku pun ade feeling macam nk kahwin. isn't is wonderful? hahaks. Wah, kt event tu byk seyy mat2 motor! waduuuhhh! so these are some of the pics...

kak nani yg manje

2009-03-19T22:16:00.000-07:00

yeah2! besok kluar ngan kak nani. Hehe. Miss you alot tau.. nanti pegi east coast cari sea shells ok? I LOVE sea shells alots! hehehe. cya tmr nani yg tersayang! assalammualaikum!

i am happy for you.

2009-03-19T17:58:00.000-07:00

Hey nina ku sayang! chey2 dah dapat 'abg' baru seyy! I am happy for you sayang! BUT a small piece of advice to you, love need to be pamper at times not putting fire to it. Remember guys need attention from us too.. just treat them like your husband tapi with limaitations! UNDERSTAND! hahaha. See you happy like this, makes me more than happy. Ain dah tk payah fall in love anymore dah. I got you girls dah cukup dah. (: dah tu, take time to know him. Dun rush aite sweetieeee!! ainlovesyou banyakbanyak! (: takecare.

Yesterday was the day i ...

2009-03-17T22:27:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was the day i let out everything. I can't lie to myself anymore. If i keep on lying, it means i hurt both of you. And i don't wanna that to happen. I really hope that you guys understand me. I don't wish to go thru what i have been thru. It'll only hurt me like what my past really done to me. But yesterday, i felt so much pain after i said that to you guys maybe because you guys are just too nice to me and i can't repay back your kindness. I never blame anyone for this but myself.. I hope you guys don't hate me but instead be there for me as your friend. I shouldn't exist in your life at all. I shouldn't have be so bad going around hurting you. Maybe to be in love now, is not the right time for me. Entah lah, i am speechless now. I just want to lay my head down to someone's shoulder. Ain penat sangat with all this. I don't know why things became like this.

it seems like an end to everything

2009-03-15T05:07:00.000-07:00

All is in a mess now. I am like no where to go. I hope the decisions i made will benefit all of us. I never meant to hurt anyone but i can't cheat myself anymore. Being in love never been easy for me and to find the right one for me is a tough one. Furthermore, i just recovered from my heart pain which has been a nightmare to me. I never like to make this type of decisions. You guys are great to me but my heart doesn't recipocate. All the sweet things we been thru together will always be my sweetest things of all. I will always love you guys as my dearest friends. The pain that i got last time is still here in my heart. too much pain i went thru. This time, i tell myself that im gonna be strong than last time. Ain betul2 minta maaf kalau ain luka kan hati korang. All this awhile, love has always hurt me and my friends, family, cuppycakes girls are the ones who occuppied my life when i am down. Mungkin korang deserve much more better girl than me. Ain cuma nak tengok korang senyum2 selalu like what i told you guys before. Now, i just wanna to do my stuffs before it's too late. Don't worry, i will always be here for you guys. Thanks for the good things you guys for me. All the laughters, smiles etc, will always be here with me. If fated, we will meet again in a good way. I hope we can still be friends. Maybe a word sorry won't be enough. I am sorry. A nice guy like both of you will always be a girl's dream. Stay the way you are now. I bless to have both of you as my friends.

Am i really feel missing?

2009-03-09T21:41:00.000-07:00

After i reject him, everything seems to be silence. I don't know why. The last msg i send to him was like nak tak nak msg seyy. Im not in the wrong cos' i want the best for him and me. When yesterday mai asked zul why he never msg me, he said that he dun know what to say to me. And one sweet thing was that he said to mai that he miss me. And he really miss me. But still its playing in my mind that he's trustworthy? I dun know lah. Haha. But nowadays, i didn't see him in school. Nk msg tapi tk tau eh.. Let him msg me lah. Now i haven yet decide if we still going out this saturday after all this thing happens. Hmm2.. Let wait for his msg uh..

It seems like..

2009-03-09T21:40:00.001-07:00

My heart is beating so fast. Its like telling me that someone is waiting for me at school. I was on the bus then. I tout i will saw someone else. Guess what? I saw adnan with his friends at the forum. now then i know that he's the one who make me beat so fast. I didn't want to see him either. Now im strong enough to face him and not like last time. I know i did nothing. Im not in the wrong. I can see all this while he didn't apppreciate what i had done for him this years. We should have been together. Im still glad that god show me the way out to this. I feel alive now with all the love around me! I will never hurt anyoune no more. As for you adnan, i alridy step out from ur life. I have put a full stop on you. Remember its on you not to others! Goodbye is a word that i will never say to you but now you deserve it..

2009-03-05T00:27:00.000-08:00

Im so sorry, zul. This love can't be force like what is happening right now. You can see for yourself that you can go far. Im hard yet i still want to be in love. You're good to me but my heart will not easily open for any guys. Im still waiting for a guy who willing to know who is Ain all about. Once i fall in love, i will pour out everything. Being in relationship isn't easy for me. I fail my previous and this time, it won't happen again. Open your eyes and see it. I know and i believe that you can find someone much better. I dun want going around hurting you. Dun put any hope on me. If u did, please erase it away. I think it's time to put everything back like nothing happen. Go, zul. Dun be sad. I'll be here like a friend to you. My heart is numb now. It has no feeling. I just want to let you know that im glad to met u as a friend. Thanks for the good thing you have done for me. I appreciate it so much. We shouldn't have be so close. I know you didn't mean to fall for me but you did. I dun blame you but nature takes it course. You're too good and i can't accept you. i know where i stand. Go aite. Leave this as a history........

Just enjoy!

2009-03-03T22:36:00.000-08:00

Enjoy like no one want to stop you. Sing like no one hears you! Love spread in my inner. Outer is my nonsense. Love me like the way you love your mum! Nothing is stopping me in my own path. Like how i really love everyone! I know, you know! So keep it low like how i whisper to all of you!

2009-03-03T00:53:00.000-08:00

NURUL AIN BINTE MOHD NAZAR

I just want to find the right guy.........

2009-03-03T00:44:00.000-08:00

I just want to find the right guy! I dun need it now but in the future. Zul is not the one im finding. He's nice but................I dun have feeling for him. He has everything as a guy but we are not meant for each other. I just want to be myself for now. I hope he understand me. I know what is best for me. I want a better life for myself right now. I feel that i want to be with my loved ones. I feel happy with myself now... I try to make myself like him but none. I guess there's someone better out there waiting for me.

oh sick guys!!!

2009-03-02T19:55:00.000-08:00

Today alots of pervert in my class today. Irritating to the core seyy!! Merepek! THEY ARE NOT MY CLASSMATES. But the are guys between 25-35 years old. Tgk org mcm nk makan !!!!!!!!! acty are send here for attachment but dorang bukan buat keje seyy... Tgk pompan jer!!!!! Umur dah mcm bapak aku seyyy!!! GATAL nk MAMPUS!! Aku tgh buat keje, dorang tgk2!! Merepek KAN??????!!! Kiter ye class anti-hate dorang to the core uh!!!! EEEeee!! U guys are sick to the core.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Skrg nie dorang tgh tgk2 seyyy!!! GO AND DIE!! DAH TUA BUAT CARA TUA UH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-02-26T23:27:00.000-08:00

ZUL AZHAR BIN ZULKIFLI! YOU WILL MEET WITH YOUR CHALLENGE VERY SOON! SAYUR CHALLENGE! CONFIRM KALAH YE! WAHAHA........................ LAU KALAH, YOU WILL HAVE TO LISTEN TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOHOOOO!!

2009-02-26T23:21:00.000-08:00

WHAT NOW? IN THIS CONFUSING MIND, YOU ARE REALLY NOTHING TO ME ANYMORE! CAN YOU PLEASE GOT OFF FROM MY MIND? THANK YOU I'M ALIVE NOW YOU ADNAN!!!

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

2009-02-26T23:19:00.001-08:00

YOU MAKE FEEL AWFUL, DAMN ASS! I SHOULDN'T TREAT YOU LIKE A PRINCE!

Zul Azhar Bin Zulkifli

2009-02-26T20:17:00.000-08:00

Hey2! How i got to know him? A month ago i guess, i went to the gym with one of my classmates. So on that day, i went inside and sat down by the computer at there. While i was on the com, i did saw this 2 guys working out but didn't actually notice it so much larh. So after a few days later, Joseph a fren of mine msg me. He asked me, " Ain, there's a guy who asked for ur number leh.. You mind if i give him"? I was Oh ok mood! Haha. so i just give larh. So he msg me afta that. i made fren with him and intro myself to him. Like a friend. Actually, i have no intention to make friends with him. One particular day, he msg me asking me why i never reply his msg and stuffs so i told him that im busy. He said he understand me. starting from there, i just msg him normally larh. You know larh, guys are weird kn! Sampai skrg, we still contacting each other. How i find him? well, he's a simple school boy! Haha. Born with looks. A sportsman. Gentleman. Fit. Humble. & many more larh. Nanti dier bace nie, kembang seyy dier nanti! Hahaks!! Anw, nice meeting you aites..(: assalamualaikum!

THIS IS MY NOW

2009-02-26T20:09:00.000-08:00

This is my now. I can't believe what i see now. My tears are now behind me. Far from me. Deeply in me, i just want peace. No more hurting, crying and suffering. Too much that i endure in my life. Im glad that im stronger than ever now. I changed everything in my life. I won't keep any more pain in my life. Yes! Memories are still there but it will just be my past now. Each time i see in it, i know who is me all about. I don't need any back voices to tell me. Sometimes i asked myself, will i be able to find what i really want in life? (:

My beloved friends!

2009-02-26T19:51:00.000-08:00

The very 1st day of school of my 2nd year, i wasn't in the class bcos' of my duty for Jan intake. Eventually the next day, i attended the class. I didn't know anyone except for my old classmates which is last year. So i decided to make new friends. I did make friends with these girls. They are Maisarah, Atikah, Ain Adiah & Nora! They are so funny when the 1st time i met them. Laughing all the way, maen teka teki with them etc. They are someone i can click with. Hahaha.(: hmm2.. Maisarah? She was a lovely girl wen i 1st time saw her. Yes, she talk alots! but she all the story was interesting1 Atikah? Well, she's cute! She's cause everyone to laugh non stop! Yea ATIKAH! You did! Ain Adiah? She's my twin larh! Jkjk. She uh, never stop laughing untill the class end. She has a sweet smile! haha. NORA! My kakak! She told us alots about nursing cos she used to be in nursing before. Overall, kakak rock uh?! Hehe! Love them alots ! you girls rockz my socks! Huhu............#01.

it all end here.

2009-02-26T19:25:00.000-08:00

All is in a mess now. Nothing i could do to make things better but i hope things will be better for me and to you guys too.

OH SHIT!

2009-02-25T23:03:00.000-08:00

Argh! Aku ter-delete aku punye posts kt blog aku! ARGH! Dahlah aku kene redo it..

2009-02-09T18:23:00.000-08:00

I never will know that i will get hurt in this way. Was i stupid enough? You left me with all the tears by myself. Do you know how it really felt? Im lucky enough that im strong enough to let go of everything. You were the one i sanjung kini kau hanya seorang manusia yang amat aku benci dalam hidup aku. Kesedihan ain berlarutan till now. But you will never least care about it. The time when i love that much, was my stupid mistake. You better just get lost from my life. You love to make my cry and now i love to see go far away from me. JUST GO!

2009-02-09T18:22:00.000-08:00

YOU JUST GET OFF FROM MY LIFE!

2009-02-09T18:20:00.000-08:00

I LET GO OF EVERYTHING!